The result

So mum was hospitalized. I guess I've been selfish not asking her along to attend my graduation. I was afraid I cannot afford. So I just the tickets myself and I really want her to be there. Just like during my poly graduation. I want to take a photo with her together in my graduation robe which I have been longing to wear. I think this will be one of the regrets.

I only got to know the truth after I'm back from Adelaide. Somehow I don't feel quite alright and wanted to cry and felt quite uneasy when I receive weird sms from my brother-in-law. Asking me when will I be back and when will I be flying off again. I asked him if he needed anything? He said no. That's when I felt something is not right.

When I'm back at the airport, calls started coming in and I was informed of mum's condition. Doctor said she only have weeks or months. But I believe in Christ. Really, a miracle. But... ... She has outlived the weeks and I believe there will be years to come. Because Alex's mum had 6years.

I couldn't stop crying. Was asking around for help. Called my CGL, told her to pray for my mum and she called church for me. They sent a leader and church gave me 2 pastor Mark's CD for mum to listen. She's open to all these just that not ready to accept Christ yet?

I keep thinking if I've not sent her to the hospital that day. I really will NOT forgive myself!!! will live in guilt for the rest of my life~