Jesus..what is this?

Really LOrd, how how how?

Why can't I just relax and enjoy myself? Relek lah~ (OK, peace on the boat) a reminder, you are sleeping peacefully despite the stormy sea.

I guess it shall be great? Watching fireworks on the floating marina bay? Hm...sounds sweet. But if he can read my mind, then I will know that it's from you? If by what I say he do, then it's not from you~

Are you telling me LOrd, watch and see? Patience.... .... peace.... and joy~

Is blogging more important than Assignments?

My answer will be YES, because I need to record this down in order to remind me myself that GOD has always been by my side.

I am looking forward..erm...ok la, looking forward to watch this fireworks by the bay~

Now then I remembered, I prayed a prayer, or was it just a casual prayer (remark). I told Kris that I don't wanna be hurt anymore, so Lord, if it's not shut the door, lock it, hammered it with lots of nails and planks and remove that door in Jesus name. Oh well, my casual prayer was... I hope to find someone whom I will not have a crush on, and it'd be him liking me first, so I don't have to make the first move. I think I told Kris this about maybe a week ago?

Hm... thinking about it now, it seems really weird. Do God just make it happen? Or was my prayer just in time for this 'thing' to happen?

I can only say this is really really weird. Though I have flashback, but Jesus, really, seriously, if He's NOT the one, don't play a joke with me. He's really nice, so nice till he offered to help me with my assignments and sent me his assignments, so that I can have a reference. He's really sweet too... taking details of my little comments. He is really unlike Dave the loser.

Shall I give myself 3-6months? Or I shouldn't even waste my time in the first place? This is but a feeling...it'd go away right? What lies ahead? ONly you can see the big picture, LORD~ You TEll me!!~

Show me show me the way~

Show me the way, if what is going on right now will not hurt me. Jesus I want to follow your way, but how much obedience do I have in following you? What you have said 2 weeks ago, of stop looking out for love in the wrong direction. So which is the right direction? If right now in this case, it's not me whose looking out for love in the wrong direction, and yet it seems like it's love looking out for me from a wrong direction, shall I even accept?

So meaning if, the direction is not from church and of the world, then Lord I ask of you to shut this passage off~

If this is not for me Lord, let us just be friends... I want nothing more out of this and I am really afraid Lord~ In me, it seems like I have an answer but I am not 101% sure. Make me, give me Lord, a 110% sure.

Good night Lord~

Amen... (Thank you for reminding me to wait and to cultivate patience....thank you Jesus~)