Will you forgive someone who break your trust? In Christianity, we should forgive our neighbours and pray for them instead when they have deeply hurt us, back-stabbed us, or almost killed us. But most of the time in the human world, there's no such things as "forgive"! You try to be funny? I give you back 10 times! How much you have hurt me, I make sure that you get it all back plus extra extra... a 100 times. These are just said when one is angry, pissed, agitated and totally gave up.
I have totally given up. Oh Lord can you just help me take it all away? You have sent me answers whom I ignored. I have seen the wall that you've shown me and yet i still drive on and almost banged into the wall. I will forgive him, but I just want him to leave me alone, and that my heart will not be shaken if he asked again.
The lies and reasons that multiply like a badminton have left me lose faith in him again. I chose to forgive him and to reagain the trust and yet, it seems that he's still hiding the truth. I do not need anyone like that! Nor does he deserve. He's not generous nor caring, excuses that he's busy with work, and lies and more lies that piled up. What's with work, and that he don't even have time to spend with me for a short lunch or dinner? More excuses... where have all the good man gone? Are they all dead? Or they don't exsist at all? Are these trials? I thank you Lord, for letting me learn. I have to let go of this, I have to and I'm going for my piano lesson soon..to keep myself occupied. Friends when you are free, ask me out ok? Love you all~
