I was reading my past posts last night, or rather early this morning around 3am plus? I shared with a friend on my blog, 'cause I really hope someone can give me some advice somewhere or sometimes some of my posting are only meant for HIM, my #1 friend, my saviour, my redeemer, the LORD who gave me a new lease of life.
After reading my entries dated 2005, I find that I'm talking like a kid, venting all my anger about work and the old man. Haha.... Kinda funny. And my friend said that I was kinda violent, cause I was so mad with my boss then, because of crappy flight, (eat grass flights), I swear or rather said I wanted to burn the office down, and hit my boss's head with the ash tray. Boy...was I violent. HAha.... That was me then....
For the NOW me, I can still be violent, but I chose not to. I choose to be someone sweet and nice. Not trying to be, but I am and will be. Angry words from an angry person is but just for that moment. If the words hurt someone, it's not gonna be good. And I really really do not wanna hurt anyone anymore. Because I do not want people to do it me too, so I shall do my duty first.
There are certain posts which I mentioned that "trials and challenges are given by GOD." I will like to disagree with my then self. Trials and challenges are NOT given by GOD. They are part of the package given by the world, or comes with this broken world. We are "IN this world, but NOT of this world." () How can GOD gives us challenges and then what?? Very weird right. Trials and challenges in life are a way to mold ourselves, to become stronger and have a clear sound mind of what is happening. These challenges that all people are going through and what I'm going through may or may not be the same, but there's always a lesson to learn at the end of it all. Be it family, relationship, finances, marriage, rebelious children...etc are all part of our lives. Had Adam and Eve not disobey GOD, eating from the tree of good and evil, though GOD warn them that they can eat from any trees in the graden of Eden, except the "fruit of the tree which is in the mist of the garden" (Genesis 3:3-5) we might not have fallen into this terrible world.
So do we point the finger at Adam? Anyway...it's all the past, so long already! But GOD is a faithful GOD, he sacrifice his Son for us mankind to redeem us from ALL our sins. "For God did not send His Son into the world to condemn the world, but the world through Him might be saved." (John 3:17) [This is what happen la, for my friends who are non-believers, now you understand?]
In this walk with GOD (my walk), there are so many testimonies to share, and I have no idea where to start. But all I can say is be it that I am alone, and someone claimed that he will be here for me with no strings attached, and that he will be here to show care and concern for me. I just wanna let you know, you don't have to, because I know that this someone who will always be here and be anywhere for me is my LORD Jesus Christ, my friend and my savior. So sorry..worldly weridous, it's not that I don't need your care and concern, but if you just treat me like a friend, you don't have to? What if someday you are attached and will you still show such care and concern for me too? That's kinda hard to answer as...no one knows the future. So I guess it's just fine if you will show your concern as a normal friend,and not overly, I might get the wrong idea you know.
It feels so good to be back to blogging, and I didn't know that I can type so much (and I complain I cannot type 1000words for my assignment, and one post here is about 500plus words. And another thing is I complain that I cannot do referencing, but I think I'm doing a good job here. :p) And to that friend who thinks that woman are fickle minded, hm.... Chris do you agree? Maybe we are, maybe some are not. So it's kinda difficult to answer too. For me? Maybe sometimes I am fickle minded, as in I cannot make up my mind, and I tend to ask people for opinion like how will they actually handle the situation, and I'd study about the situation to find the best way (which survey shows as being the most used method) to handle my situations. Hee.... I think I really think too much le. Okok...I cannot blog le, I gotta get ready to attend Mark's wedding dinner le. I hope I get to meet some cute guys? Haha.... Qoochan is back~ and it's a brand New Qoochan~ :)
Saturday, March 08, 2008
Yet another wedding
Today 8th March is International Women's Day and it's also a happy day to remember for Mark and Mei Ling, because it's their wedding banquet. It was held in Grand Hyatt.
The theme of their wedding is BLACK and red, not sure if they have a name la. But it looks kind of cool and if most Chinese who are superstitious, will find that it's not appropriate. But they do have a combination of red color too. The aisle is decorated with stands of red roses, but overall ballroom seems kind of dim.
My original table should be No.15, but praise the Lord; I'm being changed to No.5 instead, with all my Gang, for Table 15 is a mixture of strangers and Meiling's relative. Blessed that I was changed to Table 5, though it was meant to be a couple table, meaning yes...I’m the #11. But it didn't matter as long I'm seated next to Meiqi and I have someone to talk to can already.
I went to set my hair at Vive's salon at paragon before heading to Mark's wedding. My hair looks bouncy, curly, and pretty and I just loved it! Meiqi says it's worth the price too...erm... not too ex la $45. (Hairdo....$45..... Made in Japan Purple Dress....$110...... My happy smile on my face....Priceless...~ ha~) < back from commercial break....quite a random one. Hee~
Kind of random, but I was being teased at for seating at a couple table, ‘cause seems like I am the single one. So what if I am the single one? I do have my desire to be attach what, just that the man has not appeared yet. It’s not that I have high expectations la; he’s just not here yet. So…friends…be it out of concern or kaypo~ness, stop teasing me. I smile and joke back doesn’t mean I can take all your jokes. I’m just hiding it.
A thought just flash-by, and I told Meiqi, maybe I scare guys away. And she told me it’s not, so I should not think too much again…Haha… “They are just not meant to be that’s all,” was her advice. Maybe I really need to learn how to slow down? So for now, I just want to concentrate on my studies and read my novels. Ya!!!
My next gang’s wedding will be in June and another in September. We are going to have loads of fun again. I really enjoyed Meiqi’s wedding, as I was the emcee, sister cum brother. And I was the head of ideas (making the brother’s life miserable.) It was really fun!! I give 5* and 2 thumbs up for her wedding for being the most joyous wedding whom all had fun! Award goes to the ever understanding Meiqi and Fan jian Soon kian. HAha…
Alright, I shall remind myself. “Qoochan~ don’t feel sad. Like Yuen says… though 3 years have passed, that means you have gone through 3 years and you are nearer to your blessing. Remember Mr Block? You prayed for him 3 years ago, and he’s blessing have come to pass… 3 years later. So... don’t be upset. Just think that you are one step nearer to your lovely blessing that God has promised. Amen.”
Though it's March 9th today, because blogger was kind of going crazy last night and I was not able to post. :(
The theme of their wedding is BLACK and red, not sure if they have a name la. But it looks kind of cool and if most Chinese who are superstitious, will find that it's not appropriate. But they do have a combination of red color too. The aisle is decorated with stands of red roses, but overall ballroom seems kind of dim.
My original table should be No.15, but praise the Lord; I'm being changed to No.5 instead, with all my Gang, for Table 15 is a mixture of strangers and Meiling's relative. Blessed that I was changed to Table 5, though it was meant to be a couple table, meaning yes...I’m the #11. But it didn't matter as long I'm seated next to Meiqi and I have someone to talk to can already.
I went to set my hair at Vive's salon at paragon before heading to Mark's wedding. My hair looks bouncy, curly, and pretty and I just loved it! Meiqi says it's worth the price too...erm... not too ex la $45. (Hairdo....$45..... Made in Japan Purple Dress....$110...... My happy smile on my face....Priceless...~ ha~) < back from commercial break....quite a random one. Hee~
Kind of random, but I was being teased at for seating at a couple table, ‘cause seems like I am the single one. So what if I am the single one? I do have my desire to be attach what, just that the man has not appeared yet. It’s not that I have high expectations la; he’s just not here yet. So…friends…be it out of concern or kaypo~ness, stop teasing me. I smile and joke back doesn’t mean I can take all your jokes. I’m just hiding it.
A thought just flash-by, and I told Meiqi, maybe I scare guys away. And she told me it’s not, so I should not think too much again…Haha… “They are just not meant to be that’s all,” was her advice. Maybe I really need to learn how to slow down? So for now, I just want to concentrate on my studies and read my novels. Ya!!!
My next gang’s wedding will be in June and another in September. We are going to have loads of fun again. I really enjoyed Meiqi’s wedding, as I was the emcee, sister cum brother. And I was the head of ideas (making the brother’s life miserable.) It was really fun!! I give 5* and 2 thumbs up for her wedding for being the most joyous wedding whom all had fun! Award goes to the ever understanding Meiqi and Fan jian Soon kian. HAha…
Alright, I shall remind myself. “Qoochan~ don’t feel sad. Like Yuen says… though 3 years have passed, that means you have gone through 3 years and you are nearer to your blessing. Remember Mr Block? You prayed for him 3 years ago, and he’s blessing have come to pass… 3 years later. So... don’t be upset. Just think that you are one step nearer to your lovely blessing that God has promised. Amen.”
Though it's March 9th today, because blogger was kind of going crazy last night and I was not able to post. :(
I think I slept too much
I'm having backaches. Due to... in coma since monday. The weather had been cooling and I have the luxury to sleep all I want, so am I complaining here?
Answer: I don't know~
Kinda getting fustrated again. BeCause.... I cannot concentrate on getting my assignment done.
What's wrong with me again? The more I push my stubborn self, the more I wanna give up. I can't be giving myself excuses again and again that I'd do it later. (Sorta like a spritual warfare: Left side tell right side: "Do YOUR assignment now, and don't be lazy!" And Right side replied: "Stop pushing! Aargh... I'm giving up!")
Am I thinking too much? But what's wrong with thinking too much? I really wanna not think too much too. Someone says I think too much sometimes and some matter are small issues, and after thinking too much, I make myself suffer. In a way, he's quite true la. Jesus....I wanna walk out from here, help me not to think so much can?
I may look confident on the outside, but on the inside, I felt like I'm a Tofu. So fragile and delicate.
I just happen to have a flashback. And maybe I do scare guys away. Hmm....it's a problem. But what actually did this guys do that trigger my insanity? That's something to ponder about too. But then for now, I really wish I can don't think so much.
Let's change topic:
I'm never a book person, back in poly days, I'd make sure that I keep a clean record in my library card, i.e...no borrowing of books. You ask me to read newspaper, magazine, I still can tahan, but books? Novels? Unless they are interesting la....if not 1st page send me to dream land.
But right now, after I've decided to study again, it seems that i'm changed. Not because I'm bo bian, got to read so many research papers, but gradually, I began to love reading books again. To my record, I finished the Undomestic Goddess by Sophie Kinsella in 2 days. Amazing~
What got me back into reading was that I received $20 Times voucher during Christmas gift exchange. So I got myself For One More Day by Mitch Albom. It just got me going. And while I was still reading For One More Day, someone seemed to have left The Undomestic Goddess on the plane, and I happened to pick it up. It just occupied my mind at that time. And the thought of blogging again came back.
Just on Thursday, I bought Sophie Kinsella's latest book: Remember ME? How I wish I can finish it at one sitting, but I think it'd take me 2-3 full days? It's crazy~
Right now... I'm thinking.... main piority is to finish my assignment which is due on march 17th. But it's not going anywhere. And I'd be away from 9th-16th march. God...please send help?
Answer: I don't know~
Kinda getting fustrated again. BeCause.... I cannot concentrate on getting my assignment done.
What's wrong with me again? The more I push my stubborn self, the more I wanna give up. I can't be giving myself excuses again and again that I'd do it later. (Sorta like a spritual warfare: Left side tell right side: "Do YOUR assignment now, and don't be lazy!" And Right side replied: "Stop pushing! Aargh... I'm giving up!")
Am I thinking too much? But what's wrong with thinking too much? I really wanna not think too much too. Someone says I think too much sometimes and some matter are small issues, and after thinking too much, I make myself suffer. In a way, he's quite true la. Jesus....I wanna walk out from here, help me not to think so much can?
I may look confident on the outside, but on the inside, I felt like I'm a Tofu. So fragile and delicate.
I just happen to have a flashback. And maybe I do scare guys away. Hmm....it's a problem. But what actually did this guys do that trigger my insanity? That's something to ponder about too. But then for now, I really wish I can don't think so much.
Let's change topic:
I'm never a book person, back in poly days, I'd make sure that I keep a clean record in my library card, i.e...no borrowing of books. You ask me to read newspaper, magazine, I still can tahan, but books? Novels? Unless they are interesting la....if not 1st page send me to dream land.
But right now, after I've decided to study again, it seems that i'm changed. Not because I'm bo bian, got to read so many research papers, but gradually, I began to love reading books again. To my record, I finished the Undomestic Goddess by Sophie Kinsella in 2 days. Amazing~
What got me back into reading was that I received $20 Times voucher during Christmas gift exchange. So I got myself For One More Day by Mitch Albom. It just got me going. And while I was still reading For One More Day, someone seemed to have left The Undomestic Goddess on the plane, and I happened to pick it up. It just occupied my mind at that time. And the thought of blogging again came back.
Just on Thursday, I bought Sophie Kinsella's latest book: Remember ME? How I wish I can finish it at one sitting, but I think it'd take me 2-3 full days? It's crazy~
Right now... I'm thinking.... main piority is to finish my assignment which is due on march 17th. But it's not going anywhere. And I'd be away from 9th-16th march. God...please send help?
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