I thought I was free.

Had moved to my 2nd sis's place, so that mum will have some peace and will be able to rest well.

It was quite a sudden decision to move out of my childhood place. That day, I declared I was "FREE" when I step out of that door. All the shoutings and quarrels no more!!!

Me and mum was actually... erm... chased out of the house by the evil old man aka. my dad. His old and kept wishing he is senile. But too bad, he's not. He has been like this ever since so long ago. There are times when I don't think he's even concern for me, but just so afraid that I don't give him allowance. Anyway, I don't need that anymore.

In a way, it's also good, as it's hard to get my mum out of this unhappy place. It started with a quarrel between old man and my 1st sister. Then old man started throwing all that he had bought on the floor, breaking them.... (to scare us.) He's always threatening, hope that we will be fearful of him and we will listen to him. Will not forget he hit mum and blame her just because he needed money. To me, I think he didn't really 100% have been a good husband and good dad. All he wants, was money. He was always saying of selling the house and divorce with my mum (which I hope that can happen), but my mum was too soft? And kept asking, where will he stay if we were to sell the place?

Till today, or since we left home like a month ago, I still have this uneasiness that I am ultimately not 100% free at all yet.

Moving to Bishan, is a new place with a new start. But if the old place minus out the noisy nagging from the old man, it'd have been a peaceful and nice place to live in. Mum agreed to that as well.

But moving here means new rules, and more constraint. If not for my mum, I really don't have to go through all this. I want too... so much to meet my mum's need in joy. And not felt like it's a chore to do all this. Imagine, I have been back in SIN for a week. I was back on a Sat. Out relaxing with Eugene on Sunday and looking after my mum from Monday till Friday. (Today)

It's like I've worked a full 5 day week with no holidays and I really look forward to weekends and to go for my facial and massages as and when as I like.

Ok.. I have no idea how long this will take, but this is definately taking a strain in my own life.