I think I slept too much

I'm having backaches. Due to... in coma since monday. The weather had been cooling and I have the luxury to sleep all I want, so am I complaining here?
Answer: I don't know~

Kinda getting fustrated again. BeCause.... I cannot concentrate on getting my assignment done.
What's wrong with me again? The more I push my stubborn self, the more I wanna give up. I can't be giving myself excuses again and again that I'd do it later. (Sorta like a spritual warfare: Left side tell right side: "Do YOUR assignment now, and don't be lazy!" And Right side replied: "Stop pushing! Aargh... I'm giving up!")

Am I thinking too much? But what's wrong with thinking too much? I really wanna not think too much too. Someone says I think too much sometimes and some matter are small issues, and after thinking too much, I make myself suffer. In a way, he's quite true la. Jesus....I wanna walk out from here, help me not to think so much can?

I may look confident on the outside, but on the inside, I felt like I'm a Tofu. So fragile and delicate.

I just happen to have a flashback. And maybe I do scare guys away. Hmm....it's a problem. But what actually did this guys do that trigger my insanity? That's something to ponder about too. But then for now, I really wish I can don't think so much.

Let's change topic:

I'm never a book person, back in poly days, I'd make sure that I keep a clean record in my library card, i.e...no borrowing of books. You ask me to read newspaper, magazine, I still can tahan, but books? Novels? Unless they are interesting la....if not 1st page send me to dream land.

But right now, after I've decided to study again, it seems that i'm changed. Not because I'm bo bian, got to read so many research papers, but gradually, I began to love reading books again. To my record, I finished the Undomestic Goddess by Sophie Kinsella in 2 days. Amazing~

What got me back into reading was that I received $20 Times voucher during Christmas gift exchange. So I got myself For One More Day by Mitch Albom. It just got me going. And while I was still reading For One More Day, someone seemed to have left The Undomestic Goddess on the plane, and I happened to pick it up. It just occupied my mind at that time. And the thought of blogging again came back.

Just on Thursday, I bought Sophie Kinsella's latest book: Remember ME? How I wish I can finish it at one sitting, but I think it'd take me 2-3 full days? It's crazy~

Right now... I'm thinking.... main piority is to finish my assignment which is due on march 17th. But it's not going anywhere. And I'd be away from 9th-16th march. God...please send help?