Thinking back on the 'care and concern' issue. It's not that I don't need 'Care and concern' from anyone. It's just that...I don wanna always rely on people's care, and I don't wanna make them feel without them I can't survive. Thinking back, I think I rely too much on my ex, and he did most of my things for me, for eg: call for my dog's grooming (even till now, sometimes I ask for his help, cos he knows the groomer better than I do), courier me my camera when i forgot to bring them to my friend's house, and so many more. After breaking up with him, I just have to do things on my own. There's no regret, I can't simply rely on people all the time what, unless... hmm...
I'm tired! I'm really tired~ Tired of all this thinking... tired of repeating myself like an old record, when people don't take my words as consideration, when what they say, that I ought to take in. Is it fair? What is consider fair? This world is not fair!
How I wish I can sleep all I want and when I finally decide to wake up, all my worries are gone for good. (Unless I lose my memory)I think a certain part of my memory was lost dated 3 years back, trying hard to remember, but God sometimes makes you forget things...Things that hurts... So forget also good lar....
I just want to be a strong Qoochan...healthy and rich in Vitamin C and B complex. I just want to be me. I want to change! Change for good and I'm not thinking too much~ I'm just being sensative to what people are saying that's all. If I know who I am, what I am, then I do not have to bother about people's wrong perspective of me! I just have to be ME, and stand firmly and understood that CHrist has redeemed me from all my sins and I shall not be condemned!! Hallelujah~ I just have to keep reminding and encouraging myself.... Yes!!!
I need some rest from now~
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