It's Christmas Eve... ... ...

Yes... It's Christmas eve, yet I do not feel the spirit of Christmas like a week ago. Why am I so fickle-minded. I was all so excited about Darling tagging along with me to NY and Japan. Yet I cannot be open to suggestions. Because, I thought what's the point of making the effort to think of something when he will make suggestions and seems like he will love to execute his suggestions if I said yes.

I will want to make him feel happy during this trip, and I thought he said he'd happy to just go to the places I go to, yet when I have made the plans he said why don't we go here, here or there there. :(

I've promised my sister that I am going to her place for supper tonight. And he suggested why don't we have our own dinner? I thought it's YOU who said I should go to her house for Christmas lunch since I was so not keen in the first place. So when I have decided okay I will go her house for lunch since seems like they miss me so much. NOW, you ask if I'm going to her place for supper or for lunch. DIdn't I already told you that day and I was grumbling 'cause I know if I didn't get my wanted rest, I will be very very very grumpy???

Yes, I got up today to get things done. But why can't I do it in my own timing???

I'm feeling very very very super duper grumpy now 'cause I did not get my sleep and I don't know if I can sleep back soon. I have to work tomorrow!!! MAybe you didn't realise that, maybe you think that yes, the flight don't have much pax but still.... I DO NOT like to go to work with NOT enough sleep, BECAUSE I know I will have very bad mood. AND I AM EXPERIENCING THAT NOW!!!!!!!!!!

YOU have spoilt my eve and maybe day and maybe the trip!!!

I can't help it~ I am a scrooge, so what?

我觉得我被感动了。。。

今天， 是。。。 我们的第一次。。。从新家出发到机场。

而他也为了我， 很早就起身了。 步行到 657， 帮我拿我忘了带的制服还有小推车， 再驾着他老爸的车回来新家， 接我去机场。 ：）

（我感动了）

到了机场， 我上了公司，时间到， 打给他， 叫他买我爱吃的粥。

下到食阁， 原来他早已经帮我把我爱吃的鸡粥给买好了。 而且， 温度刚刚好。

（我又被感动了）

我跟他说我被他感动了， 他说会不会有一点迟，那他以前所做的不是白做了吗？

要让你知道的是： At least I sincerely appreciate what you are doing for me from now~ :)

It's a new phase in our lives that we learn. That I really learn how to appreciate you.

I learn how to say NO. I learn how to avoid. I learn to be a good wife to you. Hope you can understand. I am trying~ too.....

上帝， 请不要让单身男子出现， 谢谢。

昨天， 我们两在简讯里吵了个小架。。。 其实是我先开始的。 就应为我还在为了蜡烛的事件耿耿于怀。还有对于说誓言的时候， 我决得他不够任真， 他生气了。 ：（

是， 是我不对。 是我爱比较。 但是我要怎么样才不会一至与别人比较呢？ 我也不想啊。 ：（ 就是脑子里会不停的在和别人比较。） 我知道这是不对的。 嗨。。。。

说到这儿。。。昨天我也被一个突如其来的友善男生给吓着了。 难道教会里的人都那么友善吗？ 跟他说了， 他说我大惊小怪！ 说真的， 如果说有一位男生在不远处看到你单独与一位小姐在谈话，他的眼睛好像发光似的，看到你， 就走过来和你搭讪，还有自我介绍， 你会吓到吗？

我当然是被吓到啊。。。 一个那么有魅力的有夫之妇， 一个热血澎湃的年轻男子， 走向你， 伸出手来与你自我介绍， 难道老公们就不怕吗？

难道说要再一次像“八纳捕撕” 的事件发生的时候， 老公们才会怕吗？

说我保守也好， 什么都好， 难道为了保护自己， 而不让老公生气有错吗？

就因为当年处处留（友）情， 而被对方错以为我对他们有意识， 而造成了没有朋友可以做的地步， 让我为自己的行为而感到愧疚。 一开始就不应该给人家机会， 让人家把“大戏”都给唱完了， 才想到要逃脱。。。 是不是太迟了呢？

就因为不想再有类似事件发生，所以我才会感到害怕。 因为我不想老公生我的气吗， 而且一直不让我睡觉！！！ 呵呵呵。。。

圣诞节。。。我的最爱！

哦，十二月。。。我最最最期待的，也最最最爱的一个月份。我好希望每一个月都是圣诞节！
应为她是一个浪漫，而且梦幻的节日。 ：）

为什么我想用华文写我的部落格呢？ 应为啊，我已经被台湾的偶像剧给影响了。到底这个世界上有没有真的童话故事啊？都说是偶像剧了啊，当然是假的啦！

但是，每个人的心里，是不是都向往有一个象是童话故事里的公主一样， 希望他的王子会出现呢？

说到这个，其实在很小的时候，我想啊每个人应该都会有想过，这应该就是叫着白日梦吧。

说到王子。。。 我想啊，我的王子 “他” 应该已经出现了吧。他虽然没有长得像明道这么帅，其实他是有他自己好看的一面啊。这一点可是为了拯救我们的 （真正）王子给领悟到的。 我们亲爱的耶稣打开了我的心，让我看到了耀明的好，甜 与 爱。 这是由自己的双眼所看不到的关爱。

所以我感谢我亲爱的耶稣， 谢谢你！