Please DO NOT squat on the toilet seats!!!

I really don't understand, have I just stepped in to a china toilet or somewhere near. The floor is so wet and the seats are dirty. Blame the cleaners who do not do their jobs well, and blame the person who last used that cubicle!!! Auntie, you thought what? It is not 1980s ok??!! It is 2006 now!!! And all this places, make a guess people, which toilet have I just stepped out? It is none other then the ICA, Immigration & Checkpoints Authority building's toilet. The 1st level next to the cafeteria, and the 2nd levels are all as bad.

Talking about the cafeteria, the service are just as bad. Either they are underpaid or they just have an attitude. They are all elderlys and they are slow. Not that I'm judgemental over old people. Some are not that old, just that they are taking their own bloody time, that's all, if one wanna explain. And I can also see with my own eyes, that the public are so so so so so rude as well. There's this uncle, very obvious jumping Queue, and he still dare say he buy drinks already then decide to order the food. But, hey uncle, can you see all the poeple at the back? They also Queue up buy food first then decide buy drinks what? The auntie serving food answered back:" That's too bad loh, you have to Queue up again for the food!" The uncle then so yaya papaya:"Like that ah, DEN I DON EAT LAH!" Fine lo, You don eat, then don't block the way and stand down there Kao pei Kao bu!! Nobody gives a damn for you!!I just wanna get my chicken rice and finish it fast and leave this place. Well, actually the food not bad la,not tto bad, the chicken rice set is $3, and my root beer is $1 for a cup, you dispense yourself, ice up to you to add, no ice also $1, CHEAP! But presentation of food and service sucks. Place very very ultra dirty. Toilet....(shaking my head...sigh~)

After I finished my chicken rice, out of good will, I helped cleared the table and returned the trays to the uncle. Ta ma de, so unappreciative, fine...it will be the first and the last time that I will eat there!!! And don't visit the ICA unneccessary, use the toilets at risk!!!!~

My wisdom tooth...all gone in a day

Yesterday at 9.10am, I reported at ward 1, level 1, Alexandra Hospital to extract my 5 teeth. I was there alone, or rather Jesus is by my side. Although reporting time was 9.30am, I'm afraid that I'd miss the bus so I left home at 8.45am instead.

I was asked to enter a room with the bed which I will sleep on later after my surgery. It was weird, but I was not afraid, cause I've been speaking in tongue for the past few days. I was rather nervous though 2-3 days before the surgery.

After I have changed, I asked the nurse, so what should I do now, so she said,"On the TV and watch lah!" Yah hoh, why didn't I think of that.....Hehe.... So I switched and it was Jimmy neutron, my favorite cartoon. I am not alone. I was enjoying it and giggling to myself. Soon, the nurse came in and said it was time to go to the surgery room, so I followed her. There was another boy whom he was accompanied by his elder brother. I over heard that he was 3 years younger then me, because he recited his I/C number so loud. "84XXXXXX" Going to army soon..haha....ok I was kaypo~ But he was talking rather loud as well okay?!

We arrived at the surgery waiting room, and once again all these nurses started asking us the same thing 3 times, just for double comfirmation, my name, my I/C number, is it my signature, and how many teeth I taking out, I said 5. The boy is extracting out 3 only. Good for him!! Why 5 for me you may ask, 4 wisdom and 1 normal molar all extracted to make space for my upcoming braces...hehe...can't wait for that as well. In maybe 2 yrs time, or about a year as said by Dr Cheng, I will have a nice set of teeth already. So happy! I'm gonna be more BE U TI FUL!!

After checking and re-checking, I was called to enter the surgery room. I was calm and still able to joke. They asked me to lie down on the surgery bed, and I saw them strapping me up. I can still ask:" Is it you scared I struggle?" They answered:" No! The bed is too small, you might fall, if you are not strapped" Soon, they gave me the jab, and the "oxygen mask" given. In less then 5sec, I was in deep sleep.

I was awoken by 2 people who keep shouting my name, I heard a man and a woman calling my name so loudly. I somehow came to and somehow complaining. So noisy, I was sleeping okay?! The lady asked me how was I? I told her you woke me up from my dream, I cannot remember what dream, but all I could recall was seeing a house, that's it! My lips were dry, and I could not feel my lower lips, they seemed swollen to me, 'cause I cannot feel them. I keep asking the nurse if my lips look like sasuage? She sais NO. But it felt like sasuage to me. Oh well, whatever. I coughed abit and felt like grasping for breathe once again, like I was out of breath. I panicked and grabbed a nurse hand, but I could not see, 'cause I didn't open my eyes. But I was well, after spitting out the phlegm and all. And my nose was bleeding due to the tube being pushed down my nostrail to my throat to let me breathe. That was disgusting but I pulled through. Dr Sylvia Tan came over and patted my head and said:"Don't be miserable." I still asked her who? I guess I was still gorgy.

Soon I was pushed out to my bedroom downstair, It was kinda shiok to be pushed while lying on bed...A few ah nehs stared at me, but who cares, I was enjoying the ride. Haha...

This nurse called Cynthia, she was very patience and friendly. From her accent, I could tell that she's from hongkong, married here to a businessman husband, and they have a kid, didn't asked what sex la. But I was kaypo enough to dig out so much. Heehee~ She helped me wiped away the dry blood stain on my lips with ice cold water and also fed me apple juice. It's the sweetest apple juice I ever drank..Why? Because it's free and people feed you what?? Of cause sweet la!

It was 1plus and Charles Larling going to come pick me up ard 3plus. So while waiting, I slept awhile. He just so sweet compared to FB, cause he had taken half day leave to just come and send me home. Now the I realise that I have so many caring friends around me, so FB was nothing, and I shall forget him and move on.

Charles came and as I was too tired to get up, I slept again till 5 plus.For him? I think he just sat there and watch me go to sleep. Once again the nurse came in and check on me, but I was just too lazy to get up, can't you just let me sleep? What's the problem? Ok..Ok so you wanted me to discharge and go home sleep right? So I did.

Charles bought whip potato for me from anchorge point KFC, that was my first meal, since I fasted last night. Then Charles bought me my favourite Napolean ice cream, cause the nurse advise that I should eat ice cream for 3 days to stop the swell. So Charles larling bought me the whole tub, then we took a cab home. Once again, he's so sweet, but he's only a best friend and a brother to me.

These are the 5 gross looking teeth from my tiny mouth. It may look like 6, because one of them has chipped. I want them to be in memory here, because in a few days time, they will start to decay. For now, it has already started to stink in the container. Bye bye...tooth~ I'd miss you.... You will always in my mind!!! ALL of you~

Trust

Will you forgive someone who break your trust? In Christianity, we should forgive our neighbours and pray for them instead when they have deeply hurt us, back-stabbed us, or almost killed us. But most of the time in the human world, there's no such things as "forgive"! You try to be funny? I give you back 10 times! How much you have hurt me, I make sure that you get it all back plus extra extra... a 100 times. These are just said when one is angry, pissed, agitated and totally gave up.

I have totally given up. Oh Lord can you just help me take it all away? You have sent me answers whom I ignored. I have seen the wall that you've shown me and yet i still drive on and almost banged into the wall. I will forgive him, but I just want him to leave me alone, and that my heart will not be shaken if he asked again.

The lies and reasons that multiply like a badminton have left me lose faith in him again. I chose to forgive him and to reagain the trust and yet, it seems that he's still hiding the truth. I do not need anyone like that! Nor does he deserve. He's not generous nor caring, excuses that he's busy with work, and lies and more lies that piled up. What's with work, and that he don't even have time to spend with me for a short lunch or dinner? More excuses... where have all the good man gone? Are they all dead? Or they don't exsist at all? Are these trials? I thank you Lord, for letting me learn. I have to let go of this, I have to and I'm going for my piano lesson soon..to keep myself occupied. Friends when you are free, ask me out ok? Love you all~

Thank You Daddy~ God

I just felt so blessed this week, as blessings are overflowing. Not that only this week la, it happens everyday, if you realises it, as HE is always there for me.

My desire of a particular job has somehow being answered, as my contract is due on Oct 1st. At first, I really do not know what I want, cause most of the time I do not know what I want in life. All things that I wanted are just too material, well most or ALL does.

Ok, ok, back to my story... I have actually sent in my CV online for this particular prestigeous company while I was away in Las Vegas. When I think, why not, just give it a try, as they do not have recruitment in Singapore as yet. But when I got back to Singapore, (thursday, 4th may), my colleague told me that there is a walk-in interview this sat. I was like wow...so fast? Have ah??? Okok...I will go. But time is insufficient, I have only a day to prepare my CV, a passport size photo, and a full length photo. After chatting with my colleague, we have decided to try it out together. And while chatting, my Hp rang, and guess what? It's a call from New Creation Church--Laugh MInistry...wow..... They finally called me after 3 long months. (since I sent in my application online in feb), anyway, I was thinking...all must be GOD's perfect timing. I was thrilled. And guess what they have a casting also on sat!!! Thank YOu Lord, for making my day full.

On friday (5th may), I was in Millenium walk, as I have to help my Da jie get something, and i happen to pass by a make over photo shop, so I stopped and asked them how much they are charging fora set of passport size and a full length picture. And guess how much she quoted me? $148... Kao~ Hello...sista, you thought I look like cai tao (white carrot) is it? although I'm in a hurry to get those pictures doesn't means any fool will spend that kinda money toget the pics in 30mins( well kinda reasonable time.) But hey.... I ain't no tai tai ok? So I said I will decide and I have another appt with my Huiling at Orchard. I was asking my friends where can I jus get the instant ones? CHeaper ma... heehee... So I finally found one in Taka next to the POSB. $6 only for 4 passport size photo, somemore can take fun shots, cheap...cheap.....
I had a splendid evening with Huiling that night, and we did someting meaningful as well, we have contributed some paper lotus for the targeted 2 million paper lotus that had to be put up outside Taka. We found it intresting, so we sat down at the booth and started learning how to fold the paper lotus. And we met the master, or rather teacher that teaches all this people the craft of folding the paper lotus. And he's Japanese, we exchanged abit of the laungage, until I paused and became alittle pai seh(embarrased) when I don't undersrand what he had said, and nodded my head. ( That's what I have been or rather most of my colleagues are doing at work, don't understand also nodd la, just get it over and done with..haha....) The senseh was very nice, he knew that I have to go for an interview the next day, he told me to fold 1 last paper lotus and pray at the same time to get the job) He's really so nice, but I prayed for him instead, for him to be healthy always...as GOD is blessing me already....
Then Alfred helped me with my resume( must say here, cos he sacrificed his sleeping time to help me edit my poor english and helped printed my CV till 2am, den we went for prata...yum)


Sat (6th may), I went to the interview, and I got in. Least as I expected.... Thank you Lord, Thank You...I have not got the job yet, just a step nearer to it, cause I have to go thru 2 more interviews, the 2nd one with 4 rounds, so if I can survive that, most likely I'm going Dubai! Woo....
And I went to the casting in Mckenzie Road and it was fun, I tried the JIn Ja swee aunty role and the Ah lian whom have become a leader--caregrp leader role. It was hilarious!! But I enjoyed myself indeed...Thank You Lord for all ur overflowing blessings...In Jesus Name...Amen!!! And also for all the frens whom are there to support me, Erica and Simon~ THanks~

Dreams

Deja vu? I do have some last time, but not so much nowadays, maybe I have lost my magical powers.. Haha... I had to blog these cause I had a chain of weird dreams during my stay in LA.
I woke up in the middle of the night, turned my head and saw that it was only 1.40am, so I went back to sleep. And I suddenly woke up again when it was about 4am plus, which in actual fact that I had a series of dreams in my last 3 hours sleep. Awaken fresh of remembering my dreams, I had to go online and tell somebody. So i found Bernard, he was there, I told him what I dreamt. And fortunately, Alfred was online as well, had to hear some advice from the great master of dreams, so I told him about my lengthy dreams. I can say it had 6 parts. 6 short clips like dreams. It was really weird, that's all I can say.

The 1st part was kinda eerie as said by them, but I didn't felt scared at that moment, the 2nd part was a part that left me scratching my head till now, did it mean anything? Anyway, Alfred did tell me to blog about my dreams so that I can read it over again the next time, since I guess I was so forgetful. But I told him there's not a need. But why now that I have decided to blog it? Cos I think my dreams have somehow some connections to what happen today. Or rather yesterday, afternoon. Yunsheng called me to ask if I'm free for a piano concert at Jubilee Hall. I went, had a lot of fun, and really enjoyed very much. He was really comical, the way he presented music, in such fun ways. What's the weird part was, after the German pianist had finished playing, I somehow thought of my dreams in LA. Cause the 4th part of my dream, I saw that I was playing the piano, which I do not know how! And I can see hands, at that moment, I thought it was mine, fast fingers, just running through the keys but really nice and beautiful music is being played. Somehow I thought it was me, but now I doubt so. After seeing the German pianist played. I think otherwise. What can all these means?

And regarding the 2nd part of my dream, Alfred said that maybe subconciously I had forgiven that someone which I had a crush on before and I had really forgiven him for the stupid things he had got himself into.

I just wonder why dreams seems so real? Why is this so? I have dreamt that I was driving, always raining while driving. And one day, someone gave me a green car as a present, which till now I do not have any driving license. So Alfred suggested that I go take my license asap. HAha,...With HIM, I have everything. Amen.

Learn the history and origins of Valentine's Day

In the days of ancient Rome, the fourteenth day of February was a pagan holiday which honored Juno. Juno was the queen of the Roman gods as well as the goddess of women and marriage. The next day, the fifteenth, was the first day of the Festival of Lupercalia. This festival honored Juno and Pan who were two Roman gods. Fertility rituals were held on this day. On the night before the festival started,it was customary for the names of the Roman girls to be written on slips of paper. These slips were then placed in a container and then each boy drew a name of the girl who he would be coupled with for the entire Lupercalia festival.
Rome was under the authority of Emperor Claudius the Second, and he was a vicious warrior, not to mention the fact that he was insane. His armies lacked the sufficient number of soldiers it needed, and Claudius could not figure out why more young men didn't want to go to battle. Finally, he determined that the young men didn't want to leave their wives, families and girlfriends. In order to remedy this, the Emperor instituted a new law and canceled all of the marriages and engagements in Rome.
In the mean time, there lived a priest in Rome by the name of Valentine. He did not believe in the Emperor's new law, and he refused to abide by it. He continued to perform wedding ceremonies in secret. He lived in constant fear that he would be caught by Emperor Claudius' soldiers, but he persisted in doing what he knew was right. Finally, the day did come when Bishop Valentine was caught uniting a man and a woman in the bonds of holy matrimony. The soldiers dragged him to stand before Emperor Claudius' throne. The Emperor condemned the Bishop to be put to death for his violation of the law.
While the priest was imprisoned, waiting for his execution, many young couples threw notes of thanks along with flowers and other gifts into the window of his cell. Among these young people who admired the priest for doing the right thing was the prison guard's own daughter. Her father allowed her to visit Bishop Valentine in his cell. During these visits, the two would talk and laugh and share each other's thoughts. Finally, the day arrived when Bishop Valentine was scheduled to die. It was the fourteenth of February in the year of 270 AD. While he was waiting for the soldiers to come and drag him away, Bishop Valentine composed a note to the girl telling her that he loved her. He signed it simply, "From Your Valentine."
Finally, in the year 496 AD, Pope Gelasius did away with the pagan festival of Lupercalia, citing that it was pagan and immoral. He then chose Bishop Valentine as the patron saint of lovers, who would be honored at the new festival on the fourteenth of every February.
Over the years, Valentine's Day has evolved into a holiday when gifts, cards, flowers and candy are given to the ones we love or would like to start a relationship with. And it is all because of a brave, righteous man named Valentine.

My Valentine is.....

No one has ask me out today. Not that I'm single or what. I maybe attached, but somehow I felt like I'm still single, but never mind, I'm having a date with HIM...Jesus at 7.45pm.

To the ever so busy person: Marry your work cause you have no time for your girlfriend, let alone say your wife. Marry your money cause they just seems so much more important to you. Pack up your bag and go back to States, cause you don't belong here. A New Yorker You call yourself, then pack up and go back where you are the 2nd or 3rd class resident there. It's kinda harsh..but it's true..Sorry...I apologize not because I'm truly sorry, just a way of saying. These may be my angry words, but then I do not regret. You just do not have what's on the list. The essential important 2 points! Yet I cannot find them in you! No matter how patient I am. Cause character do not change overnight. I understand..so I guess I've to let you go, if there's still no explanation from you. I will wanna get out when I have not yet fallen so deeply into the pit. Just move on with your life, and I hope someone else will be able to share with you whatsoever that you have once said or promised. That I don't deserve, no one too in the first place. But I will let go, cause I don't see the endings. For I only see the present, yet it seems so vague. Who will think about the end? When there's not even a present?

So that's how I spent my day, Valentine's day, today.... blogging....

Will You Believe a Liar again?

Why people tell lies? Why are like white lies and kind-hearted lies? Why are there bad lies to hurt people? Why are these people doing these? What do they gain? Lie about your wealth? Lie about your family? Lie about yourself? What for? To impress? But Why? There's so many Why's in each individual life and some are left unanswered because they are not meant to be known. So Why again? Chicken first or egg first?? No one knows. Have to ask HIM. Scientifically cannot be explained, nor will HE answer? It's not in the bible as well. Ok back to the lier. I know most individual will lie to get past things, but shouldn't they be thinking that what will the other party feel when he/she finds out. In the real life, all people lie, including me, cause I'm not a saint. But my lies don't harm people, just innocent lies to get things done that's all. That I can search my conscience.

But what makes someone lying to you about them? Why are they doing that? My friend ask me why am I chasing after the wind? So there's no answer to that? Following God's way will only be good not bad, but still You are given a choice of A and B to pick the way to the goodness. So the choice is still up to us. Having Faith in him is hard, somehow I felt like I'm struggling. It's seems to me so many things have happened to me last week, but thinking about it, besides me, what other things are happening around the world at the same time when all these things were happening to me?

But most people will think of their problem first rather then think about the world right? Who in the right mind will think otherwise? Is thinking too much no good? Bad for health? Then what are the brains for? If I can don't think anymore? Listening to GOD and waiting for his Que just don't help, cause HE wants us to learn and move on and experience the different types of senerios in life. That's how one grows. Either in a faster pace or slow.

Would You give the person a second chance if he explain? For me last time, I won't take explanation for whatsoever. But now I'm giving this party a second chance and yet his not responding. Another friend say a girl should sometime make the first move, well i guess I have, but now It's all up to him to just explain to me what it going on. I find that I am quite patient already compared to last time. Whereby I'm so stubborn, still am now, but what...so? Guess we are not meant to be. Another challenge from GOD? There is just no simple way out. For he is ever so busy, and I'm out of town most of the time. But doesn't TRUST comes into the picture? Why be so uptight when I ask only about a picture? And..the reaction is so.....and giving me names. What do YOU have to hide, that You can't share? It takes 2 party to communicate, not just me alone telling all about me and the other party just shooed away my question when I ask. This isn't fair YOU know, but..whatever...My attitude now is all whatever. Fine. Like Nobita says I'm a tasty cake, sure people will wanna Queue up and buy or even stop to look, or even not craving for cakes, will still take me home.

My belatedlatedlatedlated birthday bash with ChArlyn and ChArles~

Today, once again I've celebrated my birthday once again although it has passed 4 days ago. And there will be another one with jasmine on 21st when i get back. I'm feeling so blessed because I get to blow the candles 3 times. Once with Yuen, 2nd time with Stella and Nora, (both on the same day of my birthday) and the 3rd time with Charlyn and Charles. Will I be blowing it a 4th time? I have no idea. It really made up of the lost of the past 2years, which I totally do not have memories of how i had spent my birthday. I really can remember! I don't know why! It was really a great feeling of blowing the candles on my birthday cake(a slice to be precise, but it's more then enough) 3times..haha...it's amazing!

Ok so Charlyn and Charles said they would give me surprise today, indeed I had my surprise, they brought me my favourite tulip, a pink tulip...it's so so beautiful! And then a necklace with butterflies...(how should i describe? can see from the picture then.~) Isn't it arty? Woooo~Qoo~
We had dinner at Baker's Inn and I find that the standard had dropped and Charlyn told me that the owner was changed, that's the problem. No wonder... And after that, was some photo taking infront of merlion.. and that was the end of the night.

An Earnest Appeal For Guidance and Deliverance-PSALM 143

HEAR my prayer, O LORD,
Give ear to my supplications!
In your faithfulness answer me, And in Your righteousness.
Do not enter into judgement with Your servant, For in Your sight no one living is righteous.
For the enemy has persecuted my soul; He has crushed my life to the ground; He has made me dwell in darkness, Like those who have long been dead.
Therefor my spirit is overwhelmed within me; My heart within me is distressed.
I remember the days of old; I meditate on all Your works; I muse on the work of Your hands.
I spread out my hands to You; My soul longs for You like a thirsty land.

Answer me sppedily, O LORD; My spirit fails! Do not hide Your face from me, Lest I be like those who go down into the pit.
Cause me to hear Your lovingkindness in the morning, For in You do I trust;
Cause me to know the way in which I should walk, For I lift up my soul to You.
Deliver me, O LORD, from my enemies; In You I take shelter.
Teach me to do Your will, For You are my God; Your spirit is good, Lead me in the land of uprightness.
Revive me, O LORD, for Your name's sake!
For Your righteousness' sake bring my soul out of trouble.
In Your mercy cut off my ememies, And destroy all those who afflict my soul; For I am Your servant.